Pregnancy Update

I am about 27 weeks along now, and the baby and I are doing great! My boyfriend and I are getting more and more excited as the due date gets closer. I've been prepping the house with more "homey touches" and we continue to grow closer and refine our skills of communication. I had lost all imagination that I would be building a family with someone at this age, and this place in my life, but I am very happy to be wrong :)

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The first pic is before. The rest are after.

Pregnant Goth Update

I am now about 22 weeks along (about 5 months) and people can finally tell I am pregnant by looking at me. I am a petite woman and as much as I could tell, it was hard for others to really tell until the last few weeks. Mostly other women. They kept saying I was so tiny still, barely showing. Compared to the rock-hard abs I am used to, it was quite noticeable to me and my boyfriend. Other guys noticed before the women I know did, lol. I guess women compare pregnant women's bodies to their bodies when they were pregnant. Men notice right away when a woman's physique changes. I will post a picture in another entry. If I can figure out how to transfer the pictures on my phone, I will post a before and after. I am technically challenged, so we will see.

The baby is pretty active as of the last month. I started feeling movement a little before most people do. I am more in tune to what is happening in my body in general, so it doesn't surprise me. It's really cool and very strange to feel a little life moving in my belly. I find out on Thursday if it's a boy or girl. Whichever it is, my little one responds to my voice already. And to her father's presence when we cuddle. It's amazing. Weird. I said she. Before this month, I kept saying "he" when I accidentally applied a pronoun. I have been pretty sure it's a boy, but the way I am carrying now looks more like a girl. If any women read this, I am pretty sure they will understand what I mean.

That is all I have to share for now. Thank you for reading :)

Same Dark Soul, New Nurturing Mind

Hello blogger land! I haven't had anything to write about for quite some time now. Life was simply taking it's course, and I think a break from writing was good for me. You will find that my mindset is quite different now. I am in a relationship that is going well so far, and seems to be serious. In fact, I am expecting a baby. Strange concept for me. Exciting, though. I am 17 weeks along and feeling much more alive than I did in the first trimester. I was sick a lot. Not nearly as sick as other women in my family got during pregnancy, though. So I am thankful for that. The sick I felt was bad enough. And I worked through most of it. I only called in to work a few times, though I felt like calling in every day.

It's very profound what being pregnant does to a dark soul. I live for this tiny being growing inside of me. To protect it at all costs. The only thing that matters as much to me is the love between me and my boyfriend, and preserving it. The tigress in me comes out stronger than ever when it comes to my new little family. I have gone from hating everyone and everything, to having an inextinguishable love for the few I hold dear to my heart. My life revolves around being everything they need, and they are everything I need.

Long Lost Me

Hello everyone! I thought I should let you know I am still alive, and doing pretty well. Thus the reason I have not been writing. I can't write about things that I want to keep in my life. Things that are going well. Plus, my best writing is my darkest, lol. Sadly, that means I may not write much in this blog ever again. It's good, just sad that I won't be writing. New chapters are typically bitter-sweet to begin with. Maybe someday I will figure out how to write about the good stuff without it disappearing.

XOXOX,
Lexi