Existence

Another day I awaken to my lonely existence.

The pain of this reality is mind-numbing, and almost paralyzing.

My heart can not seem to conjure up any trust to spend.

I have long been unable to think of any reason to keep going.

Still, my existence goes on in torturous agony.

I have no purpose that I have found, and no faith to speak of.

I have never met anyone who truly loved me, nor did I ever feel that anyone ever could.

I suppose I have never truly loved either.

I am not the kind of girl who can blindly keep loving someone when I see a side of them of which I do not approve.

So you see, it is a hopeless cause, this existence of mine.

Though I long to find love, I know I am incapable of loosing myself to it.

I feel as though there is no one on this god-forsaken planet who could really love me anyway.

I am quite certain that I am destined to die alone and unfulfilled.

Looking For a Job to Start My Business

I have arrived at the point in my creative process where I can not advance my plan to start my business until I can find a part time job. It is indeed a fact of life that it takes money to make money. I have nearly finished will all the clothes that I decided to re-vamp and sell. I think I may have mentioned before that I found some great books at the library that guide you through pattern making, jewelry making, and things like that. I kept the list so I can get them again when I have the ability to actually use what I learn. I had no idea how much stuff I would need to get started making all the things I want to make. That is the unfortunate down side of being a dreamer and having a vision of what you want from life.


Until later,

XOXOX

Research & Homework

Lately I have been reading up on things like pattern making, fabrics, tools, and fashion in general. I need to do some more in-person research as well. Last time I found out that my favorite personal style is back in fashion. Very good to know. It makes things much easier in the creative process :). While I love starting fashion trends, rather than following them, I do need to consider the fact that the vast majority of the population simply can't, shan't, or should not wear my personal style. Gothic, Emo, Rocker Chics are a rare breed among women my age. My goal in designing clothing is to make it fun and wearable for, eventually, everyone. Of course not literally everyone will wear my clothes, but I want to make different lines of clothing that appeal to different types of people. Wish me luck!

XOXOX,

Lexi Adams

Road-Block

I haven't been posting my projects as I finish them lately, due to the fact that it is extremely difficult to get perfect angle and lighting when using a built-in laptop camera. As soon as I can get a decent camera, I will be posting everything I have been working on.

Deconstructed Elegance

Vamped & ReVamped is now on facebook!

https://www.facebook.com/v.and.rv.clothes.jewelry

Vampire Beads? o.0

My up and coming line "Vamped" will be launched soon, starting with hand-beaded jewelry! Hopefully as soon as this fall, it will also include my own hand-made clothing!

So far the launch of my "ReVamped" clothing line has met with some awesome feedback and all the pieces I have done are either sold or spoken for. For those of you who don't know, "ReVamped" is the clothing line I started a short while ago, showcasing items from my own closet and from 2nd Hand stores that I modified and brought up-to-date. Thus the name: ReVamped ;)

Once I finish the first batch of jewelry, I will post the pics and prices.