31 & Single

I often wonder how many women are in a similar situation to mine. A single woman of 31 who longs to be married, but has not found "the one". I honestly didn't mean for that to rhyme. *slight smile* I am one of those women who has always imagined what my wedding day would be like. What my married life would be like. What kind of mother I would make. The kind of wife I would be. The fact that I haven't found anyone to share my life with is beyond discouragingly depressing.

To top it all off, I am a rare model of woman. (I hate using the term "breed". Makes us sound like animals. I prefer car references.) I don't function well when I have to work outside the home. I was made to be a homemaker. Not to be mistaken for a maid, a nanny, or private chef. I don't want to replace anybody's mother, either. Just because I enjoy cooking and cleaning, does not mean it's okay to suddenly turn into a slob and expect me to magically make everything spotless again.

Sorry, a little ranting. Past dating experiences have obviously left me quite bitter. I am sure that other 30-something single women out there can relate.

I guess that perhaps it is my "motherly nature" that attracts immature, insecure guys who will never grow up. Honestly, I have never really liked dating guys. I came from a very religious background (which is not open for discussion) and knew I was expected to date men. I find I am not compatible with men in a relationship. Their egos are far to fragile. Maybe I am a bit crazy, but when a guy is needy, I find it profoundly annoying. Yet when a girl is needy (as long as she's more than a friend) I kinda like it. I realize that statement is just as hypocritical as I hate men for being, but it's just true. Men pride themselves on being tough and manly, yet they are the biggest babies on the planet.

If I am not alone in this kind of frustration, leave a comment or send a message and tell me your story.

Rage

Rage pulses through my soul like an electrical force
Seeking to devour anyone who crosses me
To crush their spirit for their betrayal
Their eyes are empty of any feeling
Yet overflowing with deception
My blood is full of rage and
The only way to cure it
Is to bleed it all out

Dying Love

Love lies bleeding in a dark icy dungeon
Life fading quickly
Sanity long lost
Comfort out of reach
Hope vanished from sight
Trust was just a myth
Truth was rarely heard
This life was just a masquerade
No one was who they seemed
Was it a nightmare?
Or just a bad dream?
Love has grown cold
Blood is freezing in her veins
Her last breath is haunting
Her last tear froze on her cheek

Dream of Love

Love is like a dream
Always just out of reach
The feeling is so vivid
Yet the reality is elusive
The harder we search
The better it hides
The more we want it
The less likely it will happen
I sometimes wish I would
Never wake up
That I could live in a
Daydream forever

What Love Should Feel Like

A warm, gentle breeze caressing your skin

Soft warm lips kissing your neck

Comforting arms wrapped around you

Holding you close

Cherishing each moment together

Loving glances from across the room

Silent, peaceful moments when a look says it all

Walking arm in arm through the park

Watching the sun set over the river

Naturally becoming a better version of yourself

Personal growth, through mutual love

That sense of security

Knowing that, if all other hope is lost

They will be the one person you can count on

Who will be there for you no matter what

Every day would be a blessing

Knowing that you are getting as much as you are giving

One can not expect a happy relationship

If they are not putting effort into it

Trying This Out

I have had 2 other blogs before, and suddenly both communities just stopped reading and commenting on my work. BORING! I want feedback! I read and comment on other people's blogs, and I would like the same in return. I am not afraid of constructive criticism. Keyword here: constructive. Thanks for reading :)